The Wall of Fame

I am currently in the process of moving my office from its current location to one that is better suited to the needs of my business as it continues to grow. As I clear out my old office, I am feeling an overpowering sense of sadness. I am surprised by this feeling so I sit with it for a moment, with tears in my eyes and a hand over my heart. I am sad because it feels as if I am leaving behind a part of myself, a part of my own spiritual history. The part of me who does not feel like she is enough, the part that continued to seek outside of myself for the next thing that would make me feel that I was worthy. That I could do the work I really love and feel confident in that! Lots of money and time for degrees. First, it was my Master’s degree, then hmmmmm?? I had a job I never felt quite right in. SO, I thought, SHOOT, this isn’t it – on to the next thing! I received various Holistic Certifications and felt comfortable enough to work within this realm, but my fear of being found out was still present. I knew at any given moment someone would show up and tell me they could clearly see I was a fraud who didn’t know what I was doing.… SO, I searched some more for what would make me feel I was enough. I knew that this time I had the answer. I would get my doctoral degree.!!!!!!!!! GREAT PLAN!!! Who would argue that a Doctor doesn’t know what they are talking about??? Many a weekend spent without my family! A beautiful degree to hang on my wall, but that’s about it!! Not much else changed. I was still doing the same work I have always done.
Then I realized that who I am is who I am. I have been this way my entire life. I am intuitive, sensitive and caring. I am an Empath, so I can truly feel what you feel!! My heart is invested in YOU! My mission is to help bring you Peace, Clarity, Healing, growth, and a different (and maybe better) way to look at your life. In my 10 years of practice, I think that maybe only one or two people have asked me about my credentials or degrees. Most people come to me through word of mouth, or through a quick meeting we have had. I just took all of my many degrees and certifications off the wall. They will not be going back up. I’ve done enough seeking and searching for something that I already OWN. It is me! All that is mine to give was right here within me the whole time. All the Wall of Fame did was to take up space on the wall!!! Actually, at this moment, I finally realized the purpose of The Wall of Fame, It’s purpose was to make me feel more confident in who I am , In the work that I do…But, it never did that for me.
What can you recognize within right now, that you continue to seek outside of yourself??????
I know it is right there!
You are enough right now, exactly as you are!! Not tomorrow, not next week, not in 5 years. Not when you have the perfect relationship, house, job , degree……or, God forbid…….please no……….the perfect BODY!!!!  hahahahaha (My other life story!) That is my other life story. That is not now.
RIGHT NOW~YOU ARE ENOUGH! EVERYTHING YOU NEED IS ALREADY WITHIN YOU!!

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The Wall of Fame

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A message for TODAY~

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This morning I asked what we need to know for today..meaning myself and all of YOU who read this…I pulled this card from Toni Carmine Salerno’s deck Angels, Gods and Goddesses…I love this message and it truly speaks to me..You are a wondrously beautiful being of light,yet you cannot see it because you are COMPARING yourself to others instead of looking honestly and lovingly at yourself. This was the perfect message for me today and I hope it was for you…Comparison is the thief of JOY! It robs us of our  motivation, drive, strength, courage and power. (As in why even try? everyone else does it better.) The way to rectify this is notice it and see who inside of you needs some reassurance. Who inside you is running with the NOT GOOD ENOUGH belief, again?..Have a meditative meeting with those parts so that they feel heard and understood, take back your value and power so that you can move forward in your true purpose allowing yourself to follow your dreams~ .

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The Bitch and Switch

Do you have friends that you talk to daily, weekly or monthly that just want to talk about NEGATIVE subjects, other people or their own shortcomings?…I do. And, I know how draining it can be! I also know that I have many times been that person to others. (I’M SORRY)

Our lives will not always be easy or perfect and it’s great to have friends that you can run things by, discuss options with or just vent to from time to time. Especially when going through a really rough patch in life we need to reach out to others to help lift us up…We need to be heard, listened to and validated!! But, continuous venting and complaining about ourselves and others on a daily basis really zaps the joy out of friendships… Venting does not RESOLVE the problems it just keeps you in the circle of anger and negativity, it does not help you heal the real issue, rise above or move beyond…It does not allow you to get far enough away from it so that you can change perspectives.. …It’s like being stuck in the SPIN cycle of your washing machine. I know because I’ve been there!! …….I have a Best Friend that I talk to daily. At least once usually 2-3 times a day. She is my Touchstone, Confidant, Sister, and the Mother I always wanted all wrapped into one. I know she will always have my back, look out for my best interests and want the BEST for me, as I want the best for her. So we have a rule….an unspoken way of being together. We can BITCH but then we SWITCH!!! 

I can oh so easily see the upside of any issue she is dealing with. I can get her to see the light at the end of the dark tunnel. She is my REALITY slap and Sunshine on a cloudy day!  And, we are each other’s Lighthouse in the Perfect Storm!!! We keep each other  balanced, grounded and on track for our best possible future..We see

 life in a very similar way..We know it’s on our side !! We know we have to fight off old beliefs and programming to reach our highest and best and that’s what we do!! Together!

It’s okay to Bitch but you’ve got to Switch!   I challenge you to notice what your relationships are built on. Who do you enjoy spending time with the most and why? I also challenge you not to stay in relationships that are full of negative complaining and bringing others down. I challenge you to see what relationships are built on solid foundation of mutual respect, fondness, commonality and the  goal of living your Best life!.

 

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When is enough enough?

May be Never…..Unless you become AWARE!!!
I feel like my life has been spent rushing around chasing the Carrot…The Carrot of Happiness, Freedom, Peace and Joy! Can you relate?
First it began as once I get my College Degree I will be happy and feel good enough…Then that led to once I get a better job, Once I find the right partner, Once I make more money, Lose weight, become successful, I know what will really do it…A Masters Degree!!!
I FINALLY after 41 years understand that this way of thinking is very common to many of us mere Mortals…We are always wanting more to be more and because of the way our media and society have been set up (Possibly unknowingly) we compare, contrast and mentally compete with this GROUP of phantom people who all have it better than us. Who live a perfect life with no issues, no problems, they have it all and feel good about themselves every minute!!! OH and their children are perfect superstars to!

Unfortunately the creation of Facebook has only contributed more to this…You see Jack from high school and his cute little family. Jack doesn’t go to New Hampshire on family vacations he goes to Paris and his nights are spent at the Opera and hanging with Celebrities. Meanwhile you are trying to get your small business to make a profit, your child has issues and your husband is in a midlife crisis! So, more compare and contrast. But, is any of it real. Do you really know what is going on with the people you compare yourself with? Probably not!!!!!!! I know when things are not going my way I DO NOT post about it on Facebook and I am a regular user!

Being aware of this behavior and noticing when I am doing it has helped me “LET IT GO”…I realize that it is not true! None of it makes any sense. The only thing it does is keep me stuck in the Victim role. Everyone else has what I want.WAH!!!!!!!!!! I have had years of spiritual growth and understanding. I know better than to get into this. So, I stop!! I look at my own life as a gift, I appreciate all that I have daily.(THIS IS A PRACTICE) I recognize this is how we are wired. Maybe I should dump Facebook and stop reading magazines… ..But, WHY? why not go within to change my beliefs rather than take away what is reflected back to me for my own growth? The world we live in provides daily reminders of what we need to work on.

Who I am is enough right here and right now! And, who YOU ARE is enough right here right now!!!! The race is over because it never really began! 🙂

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Here’s to BELIEVING in your Best year yet!

Here we are again the beginning of a New Year. What’s YOUR Resolution? Could this be the year for Change?.I have been reading the many Facebook posts, Blogs and Newsletters on this topic. I love the beginning of a New Year because we really have a chance to assess our lives and see what has been working and what has not..Where we have been and where we want to go? What goals/dreams we want to reach. ….This year I have taken a good look at what goals/dreams are still the same as last year that have not been realized and why? I am also recognizing what goals/dreams did get realized and noticing how differently I approached those…. I noticed that it’s my belief system around the goals that I did not reach that doesn’t work..Nothing more… I tried beating myself into submission, I tried FORCING myself to do the things that would bring the results I wanted but, I never REALLY believed it was possible..Because the old insidious voices popped up time and again. You know the ones…Who are you to do that?, You cannot change, You don’t know what you’re doing, etc.. So, I continued to do what I have always done and got the same results I have always gotten…In certain areas…..But, I now notice where I was stronger than those voices and challenged those beliefs I made alot of progress and reached some goals I never knew were possible for me…You can do the same, check in with your thoughts around what goals you are not reaching. Do you believe they are possible? What old voices are stepping in to say they are not..Challenge those voices, listen for the voice of your wise self, get support around it, shift your beliefs, You Can do anything you desire! This can be YOUR BEST YEAR YET!.. As I consider the things I desire to change this year, there is no feeling of Resistance and Will there is a feeling of Peace and Freedom and the realization that we always become what we believe…I choose to not always believe what I think, but to challenge and shift it for my highest good!..What about you? as the song says… FREE YOUR MIND AND THE REST WILL FOLLOW..

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~Give Peace a chance..Not DIETS~

I have been on the Road of Recovery to finding freedom around my Body Image and weight for the last 3 years… Ever since I had my son I felt I recognized what my body was truly for and I vowed never to diet again while still going back to my ideal weight…This Summer I was under stress about some major life changes and guess where I went? To my oldest and dearest friend …FOOD!!!!! I gained some weight, I gained weight while training for my very first Triathalon. SO, I became the fittest I have ever been and the fattest I have ever been all in 10 short weeks..Yahoo!!! I was feeling really bad about the weight and of course  myself, since the 2 are so clearly intertwined.

YES, I admit, I did it again… I did!! I started a “DIET” I went back to my trusty plan that always worked. I weighed myself and vowed I could easily lose the 20 lbs in 5 weeks…Just in time to look GREAT at my company’s Christmas Party… I ate vegetable s and lean protein, I drank tons of water and swore off sugar and Wine for the rest of my life….I white knuckled it through one week!!! Woo hoo!!! I got on the scale to see that my miserable attempt only yielded me a 4lbs loss…Back in the day I could easily lose 10 in this time…Then I got a GRIP! I remembered everything I have learned…Why diets don’t work, Why self-loathing is never going to bring us to where we need to be. How working out like a maniac can often lead to injuries, but not weight loss! In my experience deprivation leads to binge eating! I know this as a proven fact, I have experienced it time and again but I still don’t seem to believe it. I always feel like if I can just do it..I will miraculously get my weight BACK down and be happy ever after.…I make mental notes of anyone I know who has lost weight and kept it off for more than 2 days..I ask them what they did and how…I think if they can do it Why can’t I?? Then I slowly notice over time they too are putting the weight back on…..They too, are fighting the mental battle against Food, Body Image and Society’s skewed view of beauty! I have made my way to PEACE around this issue before and I am heading back there again…Diets lead to the 4 R’s Restriction, Resistance, Rules and Rebellion!!! I choose PEACE.. Perseverance, Eating what my body needs when I am hungry, Acceptance of myself exactly where I am NOW!! Clarity on how the diet industry and media manipulate us, and finally Excellent self care!!! Do you care to join me?

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